Closeness

Can you feel closeness to people you don't know very well? I had a moment, just for a window of ten minutes or so, a sense of intimacy with a married colleague, over a shared loss.

I was worried about it a little bit when I next saw her, but it didn't seem awkward. I felt relieved and yet let down that it didn't seem like a big deal to her, and she was as distant as always. To me, that moment was special, as I talk a lot, but not about what causes me pain.

Apparently I can't talk to my wife about it, not sure why I was burdening a practical stranger, or taking on her emotional burdens. I don't think this even qualifies as inappropriate conversation, more like peer counselling. Ah well, I will again conceal my inner self behind this jovial mask.